Sunday, February 23, 2014

Saying Goodbye

It is a very bittersweet week for me, because this is my last official week at Meadowbrook High School (I started my new job on January 28th, but due to the transition and time lapse in hiring and training a new counselor, I have been working from MBK for the last few weeks). I am leaving my first "real" job after having finished graduate school, and a place where I have met the most amazing people.

Before this job existed, I remember what a tough summer I had interviewing for counseling jobs. I interviewed for probably 5 or 6 positions and had no luck. All my grad school friends were being offered jobs and I was hearing nothing. I remember where I was exactly when I got the call about interviewing for a testing coordinator position at Meadowbrook as a backup in case nothing counseling related work out. I decided to go in for the interview because it would at least get me in the school system (for a look back at my job search check out herehere, and here).

I remember walking into the building and having that interview and it going well but still feeling apprehensive about the job. I remember being in Italy later that summer crying on the beach because I worried I would never get a counseling job and that my schooling had been for nothing. Then I remember getting a call a while later that the same school I had interviewed at for the testing coordinator (no one had been hired yet) had a counseling job opening and they wanted me to interview for that. I remember having to decide whether or not to interview since I had been offered a part-time and long-term sub position. I remember getting the call shortly after my interview that I had gotten the full-time job and how relieving and scary it was all at the same time, wondering if I had made the right decision.

I remember the first days and weeks; the students and staff; the learning curve and frustrations (even crying in my office); all the successes and laughter.

I remember the three new girls that came on board my second year and the changes that brought to my department; the new administrators and teachers; my increasing responsibilities (and out of town conferences I was able to attend); ticket sales and soccer coaching; more and more new friends that had come to work at the school.

I remember when I began hanging out with coworkers outside of work- it was a gradual process that evolved during my first year. I now can't imagine never having known them. I have been to their weddings, baby showers, and other celebratory events. People at MBK know my craziest secrets, my weaknesses and annoyances, and when I am having my "moments" and should be left alone. I feel comfortable talking with most teachers about just anything.

It is always hard to leave and start new somewhere, but I know that what I have found at MBK is enough workplace "social" satisfaction to last me my whole career. I will keep the people that I met in my heart and in my life long after I clean out my office.

The whole job process reiterates to me that everything happens for a reason. I was supposed to land at MBK when I did, instead of all those other schools I thought I should have been offered jobs at, and I believe that I am supposed to leave now. But I cannot imagine how different my life would have been having never met the amazing people I have on my journey. I will miss them all.

To all the faculty and staff at Meadowbrook High School (current and former)- THANK YOU! MBK has the best staff in the county, and I will miss you all more than you know. You are the reason I am successful. I will always be grateful.


Monday, February 3, 2014

Just do it.

We are into the second month of the year! January was a pretty great month, probably because I only worked 13 days with vacations and snow-days:) 

I have been thinking a lot about life lately and taking charge of yourself and your goals. I started this year with the resolution of "letting go" of certain things and aspects of my life, and I am continuing with that trend this month. I am digging a little deeper, though, in that I really want to stop looking for things I think I need in my life.

I felt very happy this month. I fully believe that happiness is never having to stop and think if you are. I usually am constantly thinking,' if this' and' if that' occurred I would be happier or in a better place. I did much less of that in January. Probably because I was doing a lot of living.

Between busy days at work (and gearing up for a new job), heading to San Francisco and enjoying many snow days spent with friends, I did many things and yet not a lot all at once. I didn't do anything extravagant or out of the ordinary (besides my trip), but I kept busy doing things that I love. Whether that was sitting in a coffee shop with friends for hours and hours talking about nothing, or going to bed early or hitting up a movie by myself, I did what I wanted. I didn't apologize for saying no to things I didn't want to do, but I was open enough to new experiences.

One area that I am resolving to stop looking is the dating scene. I have been very active recently (and in the past) in putting myself out there and really searching for someone. Boy, am I tired. I do not feel like I am at my best or am a most accurate depiction of myself when I am looking so much for something I don't even know if I want. (I had the epiphany the other day of realizing that if none of my friends were in relationships would I want to be in one? The answer was a quick and easy, "No."). I don't know what is in the cards for me, but I know the time and energy I waste searching is only negatively impacting me and my personal goals. So I am stopping. I am vowing to no longer go looking for a relationship and will instead follow the saying of "don't go searching for true love. It will find you." I believe it will if it is meant to be, but I will be ok either way. I am excited to take the energy from that search and put it into something else that will provide me guaranteed satisfaction. 

I also am gearing up to get back into training mode for my races coming up. I am taking a much more laid back route to running this year with no set goals or times for any races this year, but it is always a work in progress listening to my body more than my head (rest days- you KILL me!). However, I still have a marathon on the horizon for the fall...:)

I am just going to keep doing what makes me happy- whatever that may be on any given day. I'm just gonna DO IT.